Welcome to December! Things have been very roller-coaster-like lately. School work, college apps, social issues (what?! with me?!), and just generally interacting with my family (more like the people whose house i happen to live in every once in a while) at home. I know, I know, as an upper-middle-class-white-girl-in-a-good-private-school-with-a-house-in-the-city-and-in-good-health I shouldn't be depressed, but sometimes I just need to shut down for a while. But I can't. It's like some higher power has put a cover over my shut-down button and now the little machine that I am is starting to smoke and buzz and glow menacingly shooting sparks and spewing error messages.

It's a little melancholy, but it just kind of came out of my fingers before i knew what had happened.
Listening to Donnie Darko music might have helped... emo Jake Gyllenhaal (sp?) needs a hug.
New Year's resolutions? Write more. Write better. Stop being emo and grow some balls. Find my 'off' button and give other people a user's manual so they get it when I shut down.

Here's to a new year!

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i'm waiting in with the mothballs and dustbunnies
they dance and glide under the furniture where
i'd like to hide, you'd like to hide
if you knew where i was.

come with me and sit in the fishbowl.
they watch.

there are mites in the wood and they chew through the floorboards
where i'd like to fall through to the basement
there are rockets in the basement
that can send us away
together.

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